01. 0:04 Smells Like Teen Spirit 02. 1:02 In Bloom 03. 1:48 Come As You Are 04. 2:26 Breed 05. 3:18 Lithium 06. 3:50 Polly 07. 4:38 Territorial Pissings 08. 5:32 Drain You 09. 6:19 Lounge Act 10. 7:16 Stay Away 11. 8:04 On A Plain 12. 8:46 Something In The Way
do you ever get so disgusted with yourself, like you can not believe how stupid and thoughtless you are and it’s so frustrating because you keep telling yourself that you’ll do better next time but then next time rolls around and the same thing keeps happening and you end up in this pattern of mediocrity.
1. I miss home. I miss so many people. I want to visit like 10 people when I go home, probably won’t happen though. But my goodness, I miss my amazingly beautiful group of people I got to see all of the time for the last 5 years. Lots of hugs and kisses this weekend.
2. School is amazing. 40 hour weeks of learning about nothing but beauty. I am constantly exhausted, but it is extremely rewarding. I will be done in a year and I will get to nestle back Into cedar falls with Jenna and my babies.
3. Still lonely. Still sexless. Still relating to nuns. I don’t even know what to do and rarely feel like i am functioning from the lack of intimacy of any kind.
I miss shows and I miss my scene.
It has effected me a lot more than I thought it would.
My heart was heavy all day yesterday, because I knew I was missing such an amazing show in my hometown, with my favorite people.